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float_on_alright) wrote2020-09-09 01:23 am
float_on_alright) wrote2020-09-09 01:23 am
Writer's Block and School Struggles
I was doing really well writing little stories for like a week, and then suddenly, I got stuck again. There was a story that I posted that I nearly immediately deleted from AO3 because even after working on and reworking on it and editing and posting it, it felt like it came out wrong and that I didn’t do the characters right. I’ve been stuck and unable to write anything since I deleted it. I’ve been debating what to do because I think I need to deal with that story to move past the block I have going on, and I really want to move past that block! Of course, the other side of the problem is that I should be working on my homework that’s due soon more so than I need to be working on fanfiction. I’m tempted not to do a discussion post this week. I need to do a total of six for the semester, so I don’t have to do one every week, but I know that the harder assignments are coming and the workload is only going to get more intense as the semester goes by. The last thing I need to do is leave a ton of the discussion posts for when I have a bunch of big projects due all at once and three exams to take (if I live through November, it will be a miracle).
I know that I have to stay on top of all of my work if I’m going to survive this semester. Every time I have a project due in my Research Methods class, I have a test due on the same day. The same day! What kind of fucked up bullshit is that? Honestly, I know I’m in grad school, but it is really necessary to have each major grade point due at the same time as another major grade point in the same damn class? I would understand if this issue was connected to having classes that ended up having significant projects due at the same time. I'd be frustrated, but at least that would make sense. Granted trying to separate the due dates of those tests and projects would only leave me mining into the major due dates for the other class so I suppose it's a lose-lose either way. Just giant amounts of homework and stress coming right up.
I'll have to take time off of work. I really don't want to use my vacation time because I want to save my vacation time for fun stuff and taking breaks. My boss totally supports me taking mental health days, which is the most amazing thing ever even though it should be the standard. The only problem with taking sick time is that if you go long enough in a row without taking sick leave they give you more vacation time. I have like a month left of not taking time off before I get the next bonus vacation time so I would really like to avoid using sick time before then.
I really wanted to participate in the Ship - week for Hellstar too but hat ends tomorrow and my priority really needs to be on schoolwork tomorrow and the day after and the answer is probably to get through the next four days of work and school before trying to get passed the enter's block for my hobby writing. But we'll see what I end up actually doing.
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Thanks for the encouragement! The good news is that I was able to rewrite the fic XD